Wow! What a church service! It's amazing how different today was for me than a week ago. I came to church with the attitude that I normally have - to worship God with all I've got. But, today it was just so easy to do! I did spend some time before the service praying for the service, so I'm sure that had something to do with it. But, I'm telling you, God met us there - or at least He met me! The words to the songs we were singing came alive to me.

Blessed be Your Name - "Blessed be Your name, when the sun is shining down on me. When the world is all as it should be, blessed be Your name. And blessed be Your name, when I'm found in the desert place. Though there's pain in the offering, blessed be Your name....You give and take away. My heart will choose to say 'Lord, blessed be Your name.'" In times past, I'd always wondered if I could sing that song to God in a time of loss. I think I passed that test today. I sang that song with all my heart.

He Loves Us - I just love this song! The words are just so anointed. I love the part where we sing "Heaven meets Earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest. I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way He loves us." The pastor related God's love for us like when a man meets and falls in love with his prospective wife and she feels like shouting "He loves me!" He had us sing the chorus to say "He loves me." Then we sang it as a church - that God loves this body of believers "He loves us." God's love truly touched people today as we sang that song. Oh, how He loves us! I found myself laughing while singing that song. I can't help but tell people that if you wish to restore joy in your life, you do it by seeking God! Just throw yourself into worshipping Him! Last week I was just too weak, but I made up for it this week!

King of Glory - Another song that I just love! "Who is this King of Glory, who pursues me with His love and haunts me with each hearing of His softly spoken word?" He is the Lover of our souls and He is pursuing me (and you)! It's like a romantic relationship when you fall in love with the King of Glory, but He never quits pursuing you.

I simply had a fantastic time at church today.

I think people are praying for me, because I have not cried (at least not hard) in days. I still sometimes miss my baby, but it's not as painful. I think God has filled up that gapping hole that was there before.

I know some people who read this might not believe in God or maybe they do, but think I'm a little too far gone or something to that effect. I feel sorry for people who don't get to know God on a personal level. Read John 17:3 - What's the meaning of life? To know God! Eternal life doesn't start when we're dead. It starts the moment you start seeking to know God. Sooner or later, everyone will discover their need for God, whether they want to admit it or not.

What does this have to do with coping with a miscarriage? Everything! When I'm down, I run to God and He lifts me up. It really works!